i have change Link :::
I Wish I Could Just Enjoy And Be Happy With My Life
loves doesn't make things easier ; it just makes them worth fighting ferhs ..
HELLO READER
God has given you a pair of EYES not to insult people but to look beyond situations ..
your MOUTH not to criticize but to speak ferhs truth ..
HAND not to punish sinners but to give a helping hand ..
your EARS not to be insensitive ..
well , today its Singapore Birthday ^^
& like i say , i'm gonna spend my day at home , waiting ferhs Firework =P
One People , One Nation , One Singapore
That's the way that we will be forevermore
Every creed and every race, has it's role and has it's place
One people, one nation, one Singapore
SEEEE ! I GOT THE NATIONAL DAY MOOD =D
what about you guys ?! hehehe . YES , i know i still like kids =/ being kids is better then adult ..
kids , wont have so many problem & things need to be solve .. when i want/need something ;
just a cry ! i would get what i want/need (: NOW ? even i cry , things also wont get back like what i want >:
its because things wasnt same & my heart break into aloads piece ..
& something i doesnt know where to start fixing it arhs D:
you see the different ?! sighh ~ LIFE ALWAYS GOES ON =[
hope yesterday you got surprise from me (: hahaha .
even tot wasnt a big one , but hey ; that was from my heart arhs .
& Once Again , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE ~~
Stand up for Singapore, do it with a smile
If you stand up for Singapore
You'll find it all worthwhile
Believe in yourself, you've got something to share
So show us all you really care
Be prepared to give a little more
Stand up, stand up for Singapore
& this year National Day song wasnt really nice >: i rather listen those old National Day song =]
reach out for the skies , with wings we soar up high
our dreams we'll achieve ..
let's soar and reach out for the skies ..
HAHAHAHAHAHAAA ~~ LETS reach out for the skies TONIGHT =P
sometimes we just need a hug ; a hug where someone wraps their arms around you
so tight and assures that everything will be okay ..
Feeling Like Something Is Wrong . But Not Knowing What
love is kind , beautiful , and gives you the warmest feeling inside ..
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WEDNESDAY WEDNESDAY WEDNESDAY "
back to normal post ?! sighh . due someone say past few day my updating super " LONG " uh ~
hmmm , what to update siahs ~ hmmm , share those over due pictures ?!
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currently my head like so heavy liddat >: seriously , FUCK UP !
weather killing me luhs , just go out " bugis " get something & back home liddat liaos -.-"
SCRREEEAAMMMM
arghhh , see this kind of weather also lazy go anywhere !! damn it >:
** SIBEI HOT LIKE HELL **
pictures of myself today (:
( RED SHIRT , WHITE PANT , RED LEN , SIMPLE FOUNDATION )
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these few day , things doesnt go well ferhs me >: kinda sad & disappointed !
life still have to goes on right . i'm gonna stay strong (:
whenever i wear my mask , doesnt mean i'm Fake .
at least - i know how to smile out to let everyone know i'm fine .
somemore , my mask cant fight with you ~ your mask is harm people >: my mask is ferhs
me to hide my saddness & pain .. well , i always hoping that i would be back like i use to ..
YES ! even its just a pretend ; i'm also Happy with that ^^
tomorrow National Day ^^ Hooorayyyy ! hahaha . gonna spend my day at home
& wait ferhs Firework Live ! hahahhaa ~ gonna video it & send to my beloveds =P
i guess thats all ?! shall end here ..
everyone can say “ i love you ” but not everyone really means it .
so believe it when you feel it , not when you hear it ..
That one friend everyone secretly hates & thats is YOU ..
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a person who truly loves you will be angry at you ferhs so many things ,
but will stick around no matter what ..
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i know my heart will never be the same , but i'm telling myself i will be okay ,
even on my weakest days i get a little bit stronger ~
I Rather Have No Friends Then Fake Friends , How About You ?
i dunch care how old you are ; if you dunch respect me , i wont respect you ..
" Sunday Sunday Sunday "
& i'm spending my day at home .__. staying at home to look where is my smile gone to ?!
yesterday was a bad & horrible day like vegetable day ferhs me ='[ i cry ! i cry all those tears
been keeping so long ~ & yesterday that place really a relax place ! i can say whatever i want .
i dunch feel stress over there .. really loves the view aloads ! specially " singapore flyer " !
YES ! i lost myself . i dunch know where the old " KOH YING YING " gone to anymore .
i'm not gonna contact people who doesnt wanna contact me ..
i'm tired of start conversation with anyone ! if you guys , really need me - why must i put in effort
when you people did nothing ?! i'm human ! I HAVE FEEL >:
why must you people always wanna wait till i contact you ?! why must i always step the
first step ?! why why why ?!
& this time , I'M SORRY ! i'm not gonna give in . i'm enough all this SHITTING .
same goes to you right ?! since { you & me } not giving in , there nothing gonna change .
leave it nature barhs ! i cant always give in . i cant always call you . i cant always text you first .
this time round , i really break down . who willing repair my heart ferhs me ?!
who willing risk their life just to save me ?! who willing block that bullet ferhs me ?!
sometimes i just want to get far far away from it all , i need a break from everything ..
when you love someone you protect them from the pain ,
you dunch become the cause of it ..
Always Get My Hopes For Shit
i act like all okay on the outside but deep inside , no one knows ..
i'm back again ~ firstly , my mood wasnt GOOD right now ! kinda wanna cool myself down luhs >:
& to those BITCHES stop hao-lian to me _!_ YES , { boyfriend & i } have problem right now .
somehow , i just wanna him be more mature , stop acting like a kids luhs ! why cant he just listen
to me & dunch be lazy ?! always wanna go out , also no place to go . i already say tomorrow
go out with him liaos ~ plus , monday he need book in early - ask him early go home so HARD !
& you know i doesnt wanna him waste money luhs . doesnt wanna mention anymore . damn it .
( Hey , not everything is perfect alright ! NB . seriously , get the fuck off luhs fucker/bitches ! )
back to yesterday , { hongwei } had dinner over my house . after that mahjong session with
{ uncle , hongwei , ahma & i } ~ awhile { dexter } came ! & he surprise me with 9 Rainbow ..
& ask-ed him have his dinner over my house .
& then { me & him } share share mahjong ; & starting was losing =[ after that , win back ^^ somemore ,
we win $17 .. HAPPY GIRL .. { craven } came over my house 9 plus , change shift with { uncle } ..
{ wenlai & samson } came over 11 plus .. then i let him play (:
{ samson } left my house at 2 am ~ while { me & dexter } went to Mcdonald .. & helping { hongwei }
buy Burger ferhs him .. home & wash up , time ferhs my bed .. yawnnn !
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i dunch have an Attitude , i have a personality you can't handle ..
i dunch ask ferhs much , i just wanna someone Understand me when i'm Down .
& i doesnt need a group of Friends . i rather have a few Friends then brunch of Friends who are Fake -.-"
yesterday read-ed { meifonng } blog ^^ OMGGG , i'm happy she super loves my gift i did ferhs her :D
hahahahaa ! my effort didnt waste =P heehhee ! OMGG , LOVE HER ALOADS .
& read-ed { sweeyan } blog =] his sentence i never fail to miss out ! really got meaning ^^
shall stop here .. doesnt wanna say much liaos ~ just a words , SPEECHLESS ='[
Best Relationship : Talk like bestfriends , play like children ,
argue like husband and wife , protect each other like brother and sister ..
I Just Wish You Knew How I Feel Inside
if you really like someone , you dunch give a damn about their flaws
" FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY "
& i'm spending my day at home (: kinda lazy go out arhs D: somemore , weather killing people >:
shall spend my day at home watching tvvv ~ & tonight Mahjong Session =P
( dunch assume . dunch imagine . dunch thought . dunch accuse .
if you look things by its cover , you will never ever know what its contents .
its contents might shock you , might surprise you , but who know ?! )
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ferhs more pictures ?! come back tomorrow ~
why Singapore so sian want arhs ?! .__. sighh ! how i wish i could leave this place & when to somewhere
no ones know me ~ perhaps , i wish i'm still kids back ^^ & why friends are so Complicate ?!
why cant friends no backstabber ?! no bad-mouth ?! no harm ?! there so much Question
i wanna know , & there no ANSWER ~ should say is endless ANSWER .__.
sometimes i really wonder why do we fall in loves , why do we put our happiness in
someone hand ?
when we know that we are actually giving them the power to make
us feel like
we are at the top of the world , and maybe the next moment actually
feeling like shit ?
its like the roller coaster ride that your feelings have to go
through ?
but without loves , what is life ? Nothing ?!
why give your heart away
knowing that not everytime is worth the try ,
but not everytime isn't worth the
try too ~
Sometimes it's good to act
stupid and dumb , because you wont have to worry about outside world full of
lies ..
i remember every single memories from the past , but i choose not to remember it
so dunch remind me of it ~
a best friend isn't someone who's just always there for you .
it's someone who understands you a bit more than you understand yourself (: