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Somewhere Out There
she say ' i dunch know ' to everything when she not in the mood to talk ..
mood wasnt good at all =[ been emo-ing aloads ~ cry aload ! tears like FREE ='/
seriously , i really dunch know where goes wrong .. what i know is :
" i hate my currently mood _!_ "
well , tomorrow working at " Suntec City " - pushcart (: hopefully hope , wont think so much .
&&& she still finding the old " koh ying ying " back =/ the cheerful girl she use to be !
` 28 April 2011
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I'm Sensitive Girl
she never stop loving someone . she just learn to live without them .
yesterday mood was fucking fucking fucking DOWN ! cry until like no tomorrow again =/
yeshh ! i'm cry baby luhs .. you guys will never know the feeling at all .
& dunch wish to stay at home , decided go out =/
so , taxi down to " Kallang Leisure Park " meet { kris & james & others } ferhs movie (:
" Thor - PG " ended around 2 plus . blaa blaa blaaaa ~ & home around 4 plus .
hating when i'm talking to someone yet her reply to me so FUCK UP feeling >:
hey ! i dunch own you money alright , i'm talking to you nicely !
" ehs , no school arhs ? " YET ? your reply ? " GOT LUHS .. " so big tone ferhs what ?
even how bad tone i talk to my friends , did i talk to you angry anot ?
seriously , i have enough liaos luhs , must well dunch talk .
trying talk to you more & often . yet ? must ren your attitude !
silence is a girl's loudest cry .
you can always tell she's really hurt when she starts ignoring you .
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Somewhere Around The World
she just following her heart ..
yesterday meet up with { kokkeong , ernest & harvey } .. blaa blaa blaa !
well , today have interview again =/ should i go ?
tomorrow have training should i go ?
=/ SIGH , big big big big mess ! any hero can save me ? LoL !
i really dunch know what to do next anymore ..
sometime , when you really care about him/her .. you have to show ! cause time dunch wait ferhs you .
" ONLY YOU WAIT FERHS THE TIME " ..
& why must i always be the one who call you ? cant you call me ?
since you didnt bother anymore - why should i continue bother ?
you only know how to say " tskk tskk & knss " -.-'' listen also until sian liaos !
aiyarhs , things like getting worse ? ='/
dear god ,
would you let everything back to normal ? plea-seee .
i promise i would be good girl ..
life is now . let it glow . let it flow . let it show !
` 26 April 2011
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Dunch Be Paranoid
she learning to smile even how hard its was
MOOD UP & DOWN !
sorry , today i dunch have any mood to update .
will be back tomorrow barhs .. =/
* Notice : my second blog wont be updating ferhs a moment ! due to my lazyness ~
& i'm also tired of ........ sighhhhhh ~ perhaps , i will un-private it soon (:
step by step
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Your Words Had Turn To Lies
she miss the day you turn her days
back to yesterday (: change my mind , decided go " Junction 8 " ferhs interview & train down
to " Bugis " as returning key (: short chat with { meimei , isabella , sihui & huiqing } & bus home .
midnight , { grandma } ask me whether want go downstair with her to Excise o.o
hmmm , i was orhs , okies lorhs & follow her .. nothing much .
today suppose have interview at 11 am ( office job ) .. which means need to dress
like office staff (: i'm happyyyyyy ! &&& i look at my scar .. its said " FORGET IT .. " T.T
i just give up on a good job & good pay _!_ !#%^&*()(*&^%$#$%^&
So , 12 plus { boonguan } call-ed me .. =/ asking me wanna go out anot . since i stay at home
also nothing to do .. so decided go out with him .. prepare & doll up . meet him around 2.20 pm .
bus down to " PS " .. bought the handphone thing .. small little thing cost me $9 -.-'' wthh .
no choice ! i want to hang something on my phone ='/ so bought it !
arcade .. spend me around $15 ? i think so =/ walk around & bus 16 .. went " Fairprice " bought
some chips & home ^^ ..
yesterday { ahyi } told us about her working staff daughter .. jump down from 9 floor !
& she still alive ! BUTS , she lost one leg ='/ WTHHHH ! 9 floor lerhs .. when i heard about this ,
EVERYTHING came to my mind ! WHY SO STUPID ? sigh ..
seriously , i should say myself luckily already ~ i still can walk even tot my leg inside have something
.. & i'm luckily i didnt lose my legs D: she need to spend her life seating Wheel-Chair =[
its really took me very long to recover ! i guess , she will need more days to recover arhs D:
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thats why i said ! dunch LAUGHS at people (: cause this may happen on you one day ..
you dunch know what will happen next ! so dunch always think that u'r smart luhs .
seriously , i felt sad ferhs her =[
i guess we all make mistakes sometimes
but you were my biggest ..
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I'm Wasnt Happy At All
out of suddenly , question came to her mind .
just came back home (: had breakfast with { grandma , xuanxuan , uncle } ..
nothing much , as usual - staying at home again .
indeed , i'm a girl easily jealous when my boyfriend doesnt done his part =/ or he wasnt that sweet ?
yeshhhhh ! thats me .. i dunch need anyone to Judge me (:
seeing other guy give their girlfriend surprise on special events . ( its melt my heart . )
seeing other guy pay everything ferhs his girlfriend . ( envy .. )
seeing other guy order food & girlfriend seat & wait ferhs food to be sever . ( envy .. )
seeing other guy carry bag ferhs their girlfriend . ( sweet .. )
seeing other guy give flower to their girlfriend without any events .. ( sweet . )
seeing other guy trying make their girlfriend smile when she down .. ( envy .. )
well , its really hard to find this kind of guy anymore D: look at myself =/ just a word " Sigh " ..
seriously , i will say out all this .. is because i saw someone post at facebook .
sibei dulan like fuck siahs .. without knowing anything HE judge its by COVER _!_
who doesnt want a sweet boyfriend huhh ?
people said : " Tong Ren Bu Tong Ming .. "
i once found this kind of guy , yet i let him go =[ perhaps , i'm too stupid .
you should not be sorry about loves ; rather , it should make you
wonder that if you were happy with the wrong one ,
how much more when the right one comes ..
` 23 April 2011
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Mind Said NO - Heart Said YES
she wasnt that brave enough
whole day been staying at home =/ suppose go down " Bugis " pass something to
{ meimei } .. end up didnt go , due to laziness =X as weather also fucking HOT luhs >:
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tomorrow Monday . wondering what to do tomorrow also =/ siann luhs . wanna get job soon ! But ,
dunch want so fast .. yet , i stay at home also nothing to do .. -.-'' aiyarhs , dunch know luhs ..
seriously , i really dunch know what wrong with me these few day D: argh .
getting dunch understand myself anymore .. the feeling was like - i lost myself =[
people , pleas-see dunch act infront of me when you HATE me alright . its SUCK !
cause your face already wrote the answer . dunch make me wanna puke alright ?
i would accept what you HATE me ! but , dunch HATE me ferhs who i am not (:
&&& of course , what happen on me - its will happen on you too , dunch believe ? time
shall prove to you ^^ just dunch try harm people ; people wont wanna harm you D:
i'm tired of people who act infront of me , i'm really really really tried ! GET IT ? so stop it .
i just dunch understand what the point HATING someone yet still wanna talk to him/her ? what
the point getting closer to him/her ? just wanna let people know how strong was your MASK is ?
no matter how strong it was - i believe it will show true color one day .
& that day shall be the day you felt you had already left NOTHING !
i'm longer not the girl you guys know in PRIMARY/SECONDARY school anymore ..
people who trying to harm me / backstabb me / hurts me / or WHATEVER it is ! i believe its will
happen on you .. i just wanna be a normal girl smile everyday . making friends around .
plea--seeeee ! let this over soon & let everything be fresh again ..
dunch here talk talk aloads BULLSHIT ! & then close to another person .. your words , is full of
SHIT SMELL ! so stop it before you burn the whole paper & get so many problem ..
what you doing , YOU & GOD KNOW ! stop choosing friends around you .
sighh , i have aloads words to say - i guess there dunch have a NEED to continue anymore .
dunch take people granted - they wont take you ferhs granted too (:
cause no people wanna take ferhs GRANTED .. * think twices *
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want people trust you - trust people first .
want people honest to you - honest to people first .
want people treat you as friend - treat people as friend first .
( be friend with people dunch FULL of motive .. )
want people respect you - YOU RESPECT PEOPLE FIRST .
dunch compare me & other _!_
some people come into our lives and quickly go .
some stay ferhs awhile and leave footprints on our hearts .
and we are never, ever the same.
` 22 April 2011 - Part Two
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Accept Me Ferhs Who I Am
she always remember those good days (:
i'm back with my Part Two pictures :D yeshhh , just a short outing i'm HAPPY already (:
cause the time wasnt the matter ! the matter was those time we had share together ..
so yarhs (: back to today ^^
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had some problem ! due to that slut who giving so much excuse ferhs my pay luhs _!_
- meet { little boy } downstair my house .
- bus down to " Bugis " saw { jonathan } at bus stop =] short chat ..
- find { meimei , sihui , isabella , huiqing } .. & had lunch .
- train down to { Pasir Ris } .. shopping awhile at " White Sand " ..
- & bus down to " Downtown East " .. bought movie ticket at 7.20 pm " The Chinese Ghost Story " ..
( nice movie , not scary derhs .. )
- { little boy } book chalet ferhs my Birthday :D
- after movie , train home .
today didnt take much pictures =/ as today i'm CRY BABY ! until my eye swollen T.T
damnn that fucking bitchh ~ ask me trust her , yet ? trying cheat my PAY _!_ luckily i'm still
clever ^^ always ask boyfriend help you when you talk lose to me ! nb .
&&&& YOU CHINA PEOPLE SUCK !
my dear zoe , sick luhs =[ keep coughing like { little boy } ='/ whole day coughing .. sighh !
BOTH OF YOU DRINK MORE MORE MORE WATER ARHHSS !! get well soon .
grow up ! you are not kid anymore ..
stand up ! you can do it bu youself ..
` 22 April 2011 - Part One
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Light Up My Heart With Your Care
if only she could just make one only wish ..
left house 12.35 pm with { sister } walk to MRT station together .. as she going meet her
friend & go her grandma house - she will be back on Sunday ..
train down to " Vivo City " meet { little boy } .. shop around & meet { isabella & her friends } ..
went to have lunch .. & meet { isabella boyfriend } there . after lunch , walk to " Sentosa =/
want-ed book chalet .. But , when we walking there was fucking FAR LUHS >: so walk until half-way ,
i decided & say dunch book at " Sentosa " barhs - book " Downtown " .. lol . then we walk back .. HAHA .
super HOT & aloads people also . WTHHH , GOOD FRIDAY ! wthhhh . go where also aloads people .
back to " Vivo City " & { isabella } they all wanna watch Movie . so they go other place watch .
So , { little boy } send me home as he going book in tonight . so yarhs .
pictures will continue tomorrow (:
plea-seee tomorrow booking chalet is Success arhs D:
one of life’s greatest hypocrisy : “ it hurts when you see the one
you loves with your loves with somebody else still … you keep on staring …
