Sometime You Just Have To Suck It Up And Move On
trying to make it seem like it doesn't hurt , just makes it worse ..
" Tuesday Tuesday Tuesday "
working life today ~ from opening till 6 pm . working life wont be saying much ..
perhaps , i'm speechless =[ end work , bus home .
- bath & walk to mrt station meet { dexter } (: as he ask me ferhs dinner .
- i suggest to eat Porridge , so he bring me to " chinatown " eat =P heehhe .
YES ! its was NICE (: wanna pay him money , he doesnt want take >: shall treat him
back one day ^^ hehehe ~ walk around , as i was super full like hell D:
walk till " Boat Quay " & seat down , chit-chat & train home .
& he send me home ^^
` 9 July 2012
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well , i really appreciate some people really concern
about me (: somehow , like { hanwei } (:
he sms me : asking me need a listening ear ? he willing be one of it =P .
& { malinda } , THANKS ~ & { crystal } , THANKS ~
" WE ONCE ARE VERY CLOSE "
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YES ! we will super close like SISTER . everything how i felt , i will share with you girls .
i tot we could face every problem together . i tot we could stand ferhs each other side .
i tot we will never be apart . i tot our laughter can last till we old .
all i was wrong =[ we tear away ~ & seriously , i doesnt feel good at all >: i doesnt wanna
all this to be this way T.T what can i do ?! Trust , i once trusted { yanyan } aloads aloads aloads .
but whats now ? why did you take my trust ferhs GRANTED ?! why why why ?! ..
i know it , i doesnt wanna say ~ cause i doesnt wanna spoilt anything between us ..
BUT , why ! must you LIE to me ?! when i asked you ; i'm testing YOU .
yet ? still say you got KEY ?! seriously , i have no words to say to you anymore ! YES ,
we are still friends ; but we wont go back where we belongs anymore or should i say
we wont be back like how we use to it anymore ?! .. i really wanna cry out ! my heart aches ='[
really ache , can you feel it ?! the feeling is like , you trust someone super much ; end up ,
that person LIE to you ?! DAMN DAMN DAMN !
i feel like fuck myself luhs ~ that feeling really suck like hell >: & as ferhs the $15 !
you never tell me anything about { leesan } never take ! you just say , she dunch want ~
BUT , you never tell me that money was with you ! NOT AT ALL . FUCK !
why ? never tot { leesan } will tell me right ?! seriously , I'M TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED LUHS .
say any story you like to { leesan } , i may be fool one time ~ but not second time anymore .
after all , i never regret having such a memories with you girls .
thanks ferhs leaving me a good memories with you all { leesan & yanyan } ! THANKS .
this time round , its really hard ferhs EVERYTHING .
cause my trust to you just like a GLASS , you broken it ! & i doesnt know where
should i start fix-ing it . perhaps , leave it broken then fix-ing it right ?! sighhh ='[
& if time could turn back , would { leesan & yanyan } treasure this friendship more ?!
* CrazyBoy , thanks ferhs today accompany (: & your pair of ears too :D
& all your rubbish . at least - you turn my day ferhs that moments . at least , i never
think so much . appreciate it much much much ..
sometimes , things dunch make sense ,
but one day it will all make sense and be worth it for something much better is in store .
